I have researched and researched and just thought "Oh it's just him. Just the way all kids his age (especially boys) act."
But when you have an amazing family that have only seen him maybe 3 times his whole life steps up and says "Hey, some of this isn't normal" you have your ugly cry.
Not out of sadness, but bc there might just be an answer, be a reason behind all the issues I have has with J his whole 4 years of life.
I could make a list that would be pages and pages of "quirks" J has had that make me question if he had Autism/ADD/ADHD and hearing that someone else has noticed it that does not see him on a regular basis, makes me feel like I am not crazy. That my feelings were right. And now, I can go forward and get my little J some help!
Thank you so so much to J's uncle and especially to his Aunt for seeing the signs I have, and for being brave enough to say something. You really have no idea the guilt I have been carrying for so long now and now I feel just this overwhelming weight off shoulders.
Thank you so much to my Sister for listening to me for YEARS about how I think there was something "off" about J. For letting me ugly cry to her about how I just wanted my baby boy to be "normal." For being there to lend and ear and talk me down from feeling like I just was in a whirlpool and couldn't catch my breath.
I know this will be a long journey, and who knows where this path will lead us... but this is where it starts. People loving J enough to speak up and now we work on getting him help.
